He also liked to believe that during combat, a human being’s rational mind temporarily shut down and let its less advanced, more instinctual side take over. Mostly because the rational mind was the part of a human being that would likely freak out and get the human being in question killed during a fight, and the less advanced, more instinctual side was the part of a human being that was damn good at fighting.
So it can easily be forgiven that Zarko did not register the question Silus asked as he asked it, right after he asked it, while he was lunging, and as he was preparing to strike. He was too busy keeping his rational mind from getting him killed.
Zarko’s body jerked backward into a sideways posture, his right hand stretching back even farther as if winding up. Force energy built up within his hand, built up quickly. He didn’t have much time. Swinging his hand back around, he jerked it to a stop in front of him, arm outstretched, palm facing the advancing Jedi. Tendrils of dark Force burst from his hand.
Such attacks were mostly used offensively, in order to inflict pain and damage upon the enemy’s body itself, but Zarko was most definitely rushed for time. The force of the energy attack was enough to keep Silus’s lightsaber at bay, preventing him from cutting down through Zarko’s arm and into his head. He struggled to channel the form of Force magick, but the build up had been too rushed, the strain was too great, and slowly but surely Silus’s lightsaber began to gain grown. He had to act.
Zarko dove out of the way, holding the energy for as long as he could before he had to let go. It was close; much too close. Especially for the one who was supposed to be in control of the battle. He hadn’t expected a Jedi to make such an offensive move. Somewhere Zarko remembered hearing it was in their Code not to strike first. But, he realized, he should’ve expected such things from preachers of false ideals.
In the end, he made it. The saber singed the heel of his shoes, but he made it. Leveling out into a roll, Zarko leapt to his feet, lightsaber in hand, swirling around to parry the Jedi’s next attack. Their lightsabers clashed…and held.
Zarko finally had time to think.
Finally had time to come to terms with what Silus had said.
“How long have you been hearing voices?”
How long have you been hearing voices.
How long…
Hearing voices.
How long have I been hearing voices? Zarko asked himself. He still had not fully realized what that meant, coming from the mouth of a man he had only just met, How long?
He didn’t know. He honestly didn’t know.
And then it hit him.
HE KNOWS! the thought itself was so loud it gave Zarko a headache as he thought it, HE KNOWS! How?!
[FONT=Garamond][SIZE=3]Never mind how! Kill him! Kill! KILL![/SIZE][/FONT]
“NO!” Zarko screamed out loud, unable to distinguish the difference between the outside world and the inside of his mind anymore.
With a heave not proportional to his physical capabilities, Zarko broke the saber clash and stumbled backward, falling to his knees. His lightsaber lay forgotten, deactivated on the ground somewhere. He crawled. For the first time in his life since he had not yet learned how to walk, Zarko crawled. And he was a child. Once more, he was a child. Innocent. He was innocent.
And the situation he was in all-too-suddenly came back to him, and the peril he faced became clearer than it had ever been before. Behind him was a man he had mistaken for a Jedi. The anger. The red lightsaber. The…offensiveness. He had made a mistake. He had erred.
He had to fix it.
He had to kill Silus.
Slowly, but surely, he climbed back to his feet. There was a sudden boom in the background, and he winced until he realized it was thunder. Lightening followed. It began to rain. The clear day; the care free day; the day during which he had spoken so carelessly to Silus about philosophers and excitement five minutes ago was gone. It was night. It was night in Zarko’s world. The real time be damned, it didn’t matter anymore. He didn’t know or care what time of day it was. It was night in his mind.
Before Silus could react, the forgotten lightsaber was recalled to him. This was no longer a fight. This was combat.
Zarko lunged.
