The memory was still very fresh in her mind as if it had just happened and it was a heavy weight upon Ember’s shoulders who felt guilt over the incident. Amalia had helped her mature to some degree that now she saw how very reckless her actions were at that time. Her mind then ventured to her mother and picturing something similar happening to her. Ember then broke out in a cold sweat and began to shake as she dropped to her knees as she began to experience a severe anxiety attack. She gasped for air as if she had just gotten done with a grueling run and while her hands nervously came to her head.
Ember closed her eyes and began to control her breathing. She allowed the force to enter her and help calm her nerves and entered a brief meditative state. Her shaking slowly stopped as did the sweat pouring from her skin. Ember slowly opened her eyes and slid up the mirror at her back to return to her feet. She brushed her hair from her face and glanced at her utility belt sitting on the end of her bed. Her eyes became fixed upon her light saber remembering the loving emotions she felt from the moment her mother gave her the weapon and it gave her the strength she needed. The old Ember would have been hell bent on revenge by simply pushing aside the Jedi away as she saw fit and running off alone to save her mother. “Not this time,” ember said to herself knowing how foolish such an action would be.
After getting dressed into her dark colored clothing, Ember clipped her utility belt on. She again studied herself in the mirror before ruffling her hair into place. She turned and was about to pick up her light saber when she stopped. Ember’s eyes remained fixed upon the weapon as only her hand reached out and let the force flow through herself and used it to reach out to the weapon. The light saber slowly lifted and hovered to her hand where her fingers wrapped around it. A smirk fell upon her face as she then attached the weapon to her belt and she headed out the door to her chambers.
Just outside her door was R2 waiting patiently for her to step outside. “Come on, R2, we have work to do. Master Amalia will be waiting.” Ember and R2 made their way outside of the temple and headed towards the hanger bay. She felt no fear and instead held out to confidence that Amalia’s training had her better prepared to deal with Lexus again. This time would be different.
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