<font color="lightblue">Oh how Amalia wished oh so suddenly that she had never opened up her mouth. She appeared to be making things worse, instead of better. She could not expect to make things better, really. In truth, things were not better at all.
All she wanted to do was comfort Kahn, not make him feel any worse than he already was feeling.
Surprisingly though, every word that escaped Kahn's mouth only seemed to make the Jedi Master become more angry.
He doesn't have anything to live for anymore???
Amalia knew what he meant, but he still wasn't thinking clearly. How could she expect him to. Hanna had meant everything to him, his support, his love, even his world, and now she was gone.
He still didn't see Amalia right in front of him though, and that's what made her angry. More so though, confused.
...Confused because he had so much left to live for, even if Hanna was gone.
Her anger seemed to fade as quickly as it had come, perhaps it had been more of a means of frustration then anger because he was not seeing things clearly.
"Kahn, you have so much more to live for. I know you can't see it now, but just think about what you're saying. I know Hanna means the world to you, and she probably always will. However, you should not consider nor believe that you have nothing else to live for.
Think about your padawans, Kahn, think about your Jedi comrades..Think about me."
Amalia's face softened, and tears formed in her eyes again.
"...Why would you want to leave me here so selfishly? Leave me here with such pain..."
Amalia shook her head, trying not to let her tears fall.
"...You and I have known one another far longer than you or I both have known Hanna."
She sighed, closing her eyes for a moment, knowing that this was not the direction she wanted to take this talk, so she silently retraced her thoughts.
"..I'm not trying to make you forget about Hanna, I just want you to realize what it is you're saying....and to understand...To understand, that although Hanna meant a great deal to you, you too mean a great deal, and you can't just forget that..."
Amalia reached over with her hands toward Kahn, hesitating, worried that Kahn would not let her reach out to him, he did, and she gave his hands a reassuring squeeze. Her tone was even a bit more softer now.
"You did not fail, Kahn. There is nothing you could have done differently that would have saved Hanna. Fate did this, not you. No, it's not fair, but there's nothing you could have done, not even if you could go back and change it. Perhaps you'd be able to saver her this time, but what about next time?"
Though it probably was not the time to smile, Amalia did.
"You protected Hanna until her very last days, Kahn. Think of how happy she was to finally be back in your arms again, after all that time apart. I know, that no matter where Hanna went or what she did, she always had a smile on her face, and all because of you. You remember that..."
She shook her head no at him, remembering the rest of what he had said.
"Your world is broken for right now, but it is never lost, broken yes, but never lost. There are so many things that you have done right in this world Kahn, I can't even count them all on one hand because there are far too many things. True, there are things you have failed at, but no one is perfect, Kahn. However, nothing here you've told to me that you consider a failure, is actually a failure. There is much more that you have yet to give. You have no idea what will happen within your future, but you must learn to take the bad with the good. It is a lot hard to deal with the bad yes, but you can get through it, with help. Don't give up, all you need is time. Your wounds will mend, perhaps never completely, but they will mend, and you will begin to feel better. Not now, not next week, not even a few months from now, but you will heal."
Amalia did not know if what she was saying had got through to the Jedi Master, but it was all she could give him. It was honest, and meant with the utter most care.</font>
