Such simple little ideas and yet Kamon almost felt every single one of them all the way down to his core. Eyes closed, breathing shallow and silent, no sound echoed across the surface of the void in his mind. No movement crossed his body except the constant suspension from the Force binders. Bluish glows surrounded his wrists and ankles, holding him in place as if he had the will to escape. As if he had the physical ability to make a way out.
They had broken him. Nothing left but a broken and battered corpse inhabited by a downed spirit with no will to survive. He had nothing. Was nothing. Never would be again. His daughter was gone, Kate was gone, Kenshin and Cole were gone. Nothing was left. Not even his lightsabers. For all he knew, they had been destroyed. Those sabers that were so sacred to him. The one a gift from his Master tying him to his ex-wife. The other a gift from his first master on his birthday. So simple, and yet so sacred.
Every day it was the same routine. Wake in the morning, be placed in a neck chain and surrounded by soldiers bearing ysalamiri, go eat, go mine. And the cold. So cold. They didn't give him anything to keep the chill from digging at his bones. Freezing the marrow inside of him until finally he warmed up enough to stay alive. But warmth was the least of his problems in the cold of Kessel's spice mines.
The goggles he wore, giving him the appearance of being completely blind to everything, were as black as possible, but allowed him to see in the almost endless dark of the mines. If he was to stay alive, to not be eaten by Energy Spiders, seeing a few miners eaten was bad enough, he needed to be able to see. And run. The last he could almost not do thanks to the loss in muscle mass do to the constant torture of mining. Somehow he managed to find energy when he needed it.
The breath mask, his only source of oxygen unless he wanted to wheeze to death and cough up blood, did little to stop the delirium brought on by contact with spice. His breathing was labored as it was. The stress of working the mines, of torture by relentless prisoner guards, of less than normal amounts of oxygen, was slowly killing him and wearing him thin.
His clothes, the same that had been on his back since the first day he had been there, were little but rags now. If he hadn't gotten his body used to the cold he would have been dead almost as soon as he arrived. Survival skills wouldn't allow him to die. And the delirium brought on by the spice always seemed to show him his daughter somewhere with her advisors on a GC world. The thought of her kept his mind strong while his body slowly failed.
He walked down the corridor, guards surrounding him, one leading him by a chain and collar, shivering as if it were the middle of winter back on Tholatin and he had on no clothing. To be truthful, he almost did have on no clothing. The rags he wore barely served to cover his lower and upper half. A few other miners had taken pity on him and helped him when the guards weren't looking. Which, unfortunately, wasn't very often.
His walk was almost a shuffle. Loss of muscle mass and low nutrition made his motor skills deteriorate a little bit everyday. The blank look in his eyes kept him from seeing any abuses against other prisoners. The goggles were as uncomfortable as ever and the breath mask was no better. His head swung from side to side, eyes staring forward as he shuffled along. A few prisoners tried to speak to him, but Kamon hid in the void and said nothing. They glanced away when he didn't even move to look at them.
"Alright, "prince". Today you will mine here. It seems you have grown too accustomed to those around you at the old location. When we looked away, they were helping you and you didn't stop them. We can't allow that, now can we?"
The soldier smirked, and pushed him towards the material. Cautiously, returning from the void so he could perform the task and not be whipped, he moved his pick closer to the material. He was prepared for the effects of the glitterstim, but at first it didn't come. For once he was able to be relieved. All the other times the glitterstim had affected him at the very first.
"Glit-biters getting used to it."
"I've never seen him use the drug, Johnson. Unless you care to speak intelligently I suggest shutting up and keeping your eyes on the prisoner."
"Yes, sir. Sorry, sir."
Pulling some of it away to place in the cart, he noticed one of the soldiers smacking a whip into his palm. So it would be that way. No matter how well he did, no matter how much he mined, they would beat him as before. This he was tired of. Sighing, he reached back for the void and slid away from the outside world. Without a care, he moved his pick and chopped some off. When he bent to pick it up, he got it a bit to close to his face and inhaled.
As he set the substance in the cart, he wavered. Hands grasped the cart and he was barely aware of the soldiers holding back a few prisoners that moved to help him. The void collapsed around him and the delirium came on. This time, though, it wasn't like before. He saw a face he had never seen then everything went dark. It felt like he was drifting to sleep. Sliding down an endless dark to the nothingness below. His hand smacked the ground and the pick slid away.